If you're not the one and something that difficult to understand

        If You’re not the one by Daniel Bedingfield is the one of my favorite song that I loves so much. I love a good meaning in the lyrics sometimes I think this song is my.
      Besides me, this song is for a lovely sister at the Foreign Ministry. Many days ago I heard a good news from her (she and I ever working together in the same division) that she will get married on 29th May 2007. Life is something difficult to understand. Sometimes we have select something that is the true of life more than give up the dream that we never know its will come true or not? And this sister also, about six months ago she guessed me to know this song in another way that I knew. I remember that day she opened this song and told me that recently this song made her cried again and she didn’t know why she was not strong enough when the time passed one and a half year yet? And she said that she though it was her song especially in a   phrase “If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife” (for her will change my wife to “my husband”) But she knew well of the reasons for when she broke-up with that guy. It was because of he didn’t do something that he should. He may love her, but it not enough to make him do something that proper for the relationship. She told me when the situation went on like this she would select someone to stay together. He is a good guy that ready to take care of her all his life. Since sometime even how much we loving him, but if he does not appreciate or worth of us, we should be stepping out from his life rather than being with emptiness. I think her opinion is so true. If I fall in the situation like her, I’m also do like her even I’m loving him until I can die for him, but if he didn’t see the worth of me it is unnecessary to staying.
        Life is something difficult to understand. When I was very young, I ever look down the love of Dad to Mom because I don’t believe that the most flirting guy will have a real love of someone in his life (You know since I can remember I hared a problem from a flirtation of him until I saw it’s a normally, Mom said that “let him go ‘cause I’m sure that at the end he will be back to us and he won’t cross a problem to me” and every money of him, he gave it to my Mom for take care of me and mange every thing at home. I ever tried to tell her that “I don’t mind if you will break up with him, and I don’t understand how come you are bearing with him like this?” I remember she told me that “The reason is YOU and I know well he loves me” That time I argued with her that “I don’t think so I think he loves you because no one can serve him like this” (My Dad never do any house work, even serving himself a glass of water) That time she smiled and told me that “Take a time to proof that the opinion of whom will be correct”
        At the end I found that my Mom is correct. Since she admitted in the hospital about one and a half month, my Dad went to visit her only one ‘cause he afraid to see my Mom in a sickness until Mom passed away, In funeral ceremony I saw my Dad sat alone in a corner and nobody didn’t hear anything from him until cremate ceremony everyone must put a flower to Mom for the last time, but my Dad does not come to see her for the last time. On that time only me understand him, but I understand he may need to keep a sweet memories with Mom when she was living only. I fell sorry when I ever looked down his love to Mom. After six months of her funeral ceremony he passed away followed her and now I think Dad and Mom will be staying together in somewhere. I don’t know I will have someone to sad when I die like my Mom or not?
        But most of all, I’m wishing my lovely sister very happy in a new life and I hope that I won’t be crying when I listen this song like the lovely sister.