You're the one who set it up, Now you're the one to make it stop...

Do you ever give up someone? On last three years ago, I got a wedding card from someone who's ever gave a promise to me that he will talk care of me and he asked me give him up for three years while he was studying in the specialist medicine. At the end he can’t keep the words as he said to me, on that time I was very said and I felt so sorry with the incident. But I had keep every felling when I staying with friends or everyone who knows both he and I. (especially a nurse god mom who told me about it before the card arrived to me at home, I remember I spent time for a two weeks until I was strong enough to open his card) Since that time I ever swear with myself that I will never give up anyone again. But I broke the swear with myself again, I met someone who can make me respect and thinking about him that he is the important person for me. But I won’t talk about him more than this because he also read the blog. Both he and I, I never have a question for us I give up everything with the felling ‘Just I know he is the important person in my life and I will have a chance to do everything for him it’s ENOUGH’ Even I want to know and to hear from him the most. Until the time that we have apart (for his work) I told him that I won’t say goodbye to him and can’t to say congratulations to him as another person. I remember on the last day that we’ve met, I asked him he has something to said to me before we’re far away or not? The answer is ‘No’ you know, I didn’t disappoint in his answer cause I can belonging and most importantly, I’m sure that I do EVERYTHING for him as one man can do it in this life so I will never sorry everything about us.

He never know, One day of waiting is very long and most importantly, when we never know about the news from the one that we look forward to hearing all the time. When the situation goes on like this it makes me feel like I have no any worth in myself and lost all of the self respect that I ever have for a long time until I have introspect about everything that I would to do for the future… It’s may very hard to stepping out, but I realized that I’m should be select to staying with someone who looking in my worth more…

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There aint't so much for me anymore…..